It seems like he cares more than you do.

Something about that is just completely…. wrong.

Quite upsetting.

Sick of people going off on one that I’m pregnant at 18.
Fuck off.

What’s it got to do with you? 

Nothing at all.

It’s my choice and I’ll live with it.

You’re nothing to do with my life therefor you don’t get a say in the matter.

I’m happy.

That’s all I care about.

Anyone know that one person who tells you it how it is?
And doesnt bullshit you telling you it will be fine?

Well I know one of those people.

Who doesnt bullshit me and never has.

I had a bad day yesterday and last night wasnt any better.

I felt like shit, kinda still do, so I sat down talking to this certain person, and they just told me it like it was, but still made me realize there is actually a point.

They’ve never been the most affection it from what ive heard but those tiny times when they actually are have to be the best moments of my life.

Just the simple words they speak when I’m down.

Or when they just hold me and tell me they’re always there to listen.

Throughout everything I have noticed who is actually truly there and who isnt.

And this one person has ALWAYS been there.

Even though they where and still sort of are involved with it all.

Theyre still there for me.

& I love them for it.

I just can’t bring myself to tell them.

Fuck.

Seriously though.

I have thought about it for the past few days.
but In all honesty, the only thing keeping me going after I said no one would miss me was the most beautiful words from the most beautiful boy ever;

“I would miss you”

Thats it, regardless of who else or what else, after he spoke those four words to me, I was fine.

I smiled a smile I aint smiled in months, years even.

I just wish I could grasp a hold of this whole situation and throw it all down the drain.

I love him so much.

I honestly do.

In so many ways.

Drip.

So I had to flee my hometown due to violence.

Normally I would have stayed and just fought it all off but in my condition I can’t take the risk.

So that’s never good.
But I’ve made a nice new home where I  am now, so I’m happy. :D

& I have a wonderful best pal (whos a a dog mind you, but heyho)
He’s gorgeous. :) And hes taken a real shine to me, :D
Proper good.

I’m still engaged.
& now expecting, the pitter patter of tiny feet. :)

So yes.
The Zero is having to start all over again & she’s only 17

(18 in 2 months though YAAAY)

xo

I just dunno wtf to do anymore.

*sigh*

I keep thinking things are going alright and then BAM.
They’re not going so good anymore.

:(

Has not once let me down.

& all because of some idiotic woman I could be losing him.

Please don’t let it happen.

I can’t live without him.

He’s my life. The reason I eat, sleep & breathe.

I love him.

Always.

I’ll wait forever and a day for you babe.

However long it takes. I’ll be out here waiting.

Always.

It was my sisters 21st birthday party tonight.

My so called bf was supposed to come.

He didnt.

I’m hoping he had a good excuse

Naw infact ah dont.

Fuck that.

I’m annoyed, upset and very very very very very drunk.

Mhm.

Buckfast, Jagerbombs & Budweiser will do that to you.

Ahahaha.

Aw. Good times.

I basically have just left her.

Well don’t I feel like crying

Urgh

Consisted of a fucking lot of things;

I don’t care if you don’t wanna know.

I need to vent. Ha.

• Being ignored.
• Breaking up an almost fight.
• Constantly arguing
• Seeing people I’ve missed.
• Being held by one of thee most amazing people ever.
• Getting chips (:
• Walking home on very wet ground in my bare feet.
• Being carried over leaves.
• Being scared by Geo. 
• Getting VERY drunk
• Wearing tiny shorts.
• Getting scared by like every horror film on.
• Meeting random cool people.
• Being scratched to death
• Regretting every move I made
• Sleeping on beer soaked jeans with a tiny jacket covering me on a hard floor.
• Feeling like shite.
• Stealing chips, chicken burger & someones phone.

The best moment? 

My dad pulling up to pick me up from all the hell of the weekend.

It was good, but at the same time, fucking bullshit.

I’m still recovering from all my lack of sleep.

Ha.

:(

What d’ya think?

I’m not sure.

Hahaha

?

1. Get your head out your arse. & learn to be mature sometimes fucksake.

2. Dont rip me to shreds and act like you didnt do anything a minute later.

3. I couldnt care less about any of that.

4. I miss our long conversations.

5. None of this has anything to do with Stephen Jack so fuck off with that.

6. I need my dad. I don’t need your shitty sympathy.

7. I love him GET THE FUCK OVER IT ALREADY.

Sorry.

I had to rant.

I’m so emotional tonight.

This is my blog.

I’ll rant all I want right?

So I’m sitting here crying.

for the first time in my life im faking my happiness to everyone.

And its killing me.

I dont know how to stop it.

And all thats going through my head atm is how shite my life is.

Yes it could be worse I know.

I’m sorry to all whos life is shit right now.

I hope it gets better.

No one deserves to go through any pain.

I just wish I knew how to reach out for help.

Fuck.

Katie I miss you baby girl.

I wish you where still here,I could really use your help.