True dat
(Source: hetz-em-ily)
This is the last night you’ll spend alone.
Anyone know that one person who tells you it how it is?
And doesnt bullshit you telling you it will be fine?
Well I know one of those people.
Who doesnt bullshit me and never has.
I had a bad day yesterday and last night wasnt any better.
I felt like shit, kinda still do, so I sat down talking to this certain person, and they just told me it like it was, but still made me realize there is actually a point.
They’ve never been the most affection it from what ive heard but those tiny times when they actually are have to be the best moments of my life.
Just the simple words they speak when I’m down.
Or when they just hold me and tell me they’re always there to listen.
Throughout everything I have noticed who is actually truly there and who isnt.
And this one person has ALWAYS been there.
Even though they where and still sort of are involved with it all.
Theyre still there for me.
& I love them for it.
I just can’t bring myself to tell them.
Fuck.
“I Just Want To Curl Up In A Ball And Die”
Seriously though.
I have thought about it for the past few days.
but In all honesty, the only thing keeping me going after I said no one would miss me was the most beautiful words from the most beautiful boy ever;
“I would miss you”
Thats it, regardless of who else or what else, after he spoke those four words to me, I was fine.
I smiled a smile I aint smiled in months, years even.
I just wish I could grasp a hold of this whole situation and throw it all down the drain.
I love him so much.
I honestly do.
In so many ways.
